It WILL Get Better...

It Has To...

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I decided a couple of weeks ago that I needed to say something SOON, because this boy’s been hitting on me for months now and I was running out of excuses. He wouldn’t take the “it’s not you it’s me” line so I decided I had to come out as asexual, if only to stop that. 

National Coming Out Day seemed like a good day to do it. I came out today even though I’m in the UK - I don’t know why we have it on the 12th! I’m just taking it as a two day celebration, double the fun.

I made a post in the morning and saved it, then spent the whole day thinking about whether I was going to post. Eventually I posted it just before I went out for two hours to play football, so I wouldn’t see any immediate responses, I’d have two hours to freak out first!

Everything was ok, mostly. The boy didn’t take it very well - apparently I crushed his hopes and dreams….so not great. But everyone else was ok.

I’m not out to Facebook, or my family, or the majority of my friends in real life. I know some people irl on tumblr and they’re the important ones but family is definitely waiting. A religious dad and a homophobic mum doesn’t make for a good outcome…..

But it’s a start.

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Why is it…

That so many people can’t stand to be around you when you’re having a tough time? When you’re happy everyone wants to be around you but when you go through a trying time it gets so much harder to find people who will stick around. At first, people are usually supportive but then they expect you to “get over it” You can start to see their eyes glaze over every time you start to talk about things again. I’m not saying it’s anyone else’s fault cuz I’ll admit that I’m one of those people that over talks everything. It just sucks when you get to that point when you just feel like a burden to everyone so you hold stuff in and that just makes it harder to move on.

With that being said, if anyone needs advice or just someone to talk to feel free to send me an “ask.” I know you might not know me, but I love being able to help people and no one deserves to feel like they have nowhere to turn. It won’t annoy me and I won’t judge anything you have to say so feel free :)